"I Wanna Hold Your Haaaaaaaand...."

After he left I checked my email, having a message from one of the other guys I was supposed to meet that week. I had this anxious feeling about that though. I was chatting with another one online later that night when Markus texted me good night and to have a great day tomorrow…awww!

I had agreed to meet this other gentleman, but when I went to bed that night…I just had this unsettling feeling. I decided to pray and leave it up to God to guide me in what I should do. When I woke up the next morning to go to work, I still had that uneasy feeling about meeting the other guy. I got to work and talked to one of my co-workers about it…she smiled and said: “Well, I think you know what you need to do…” So I took her advice and listened to the little voice inside my head that said to pursue these feelings I was having for Markus. I emailed the guy and told him that I met someone and wanted to see where it would go. He promptly emailed back “How could you do this to me? I opened up to you and this is what you do?” Dude I’ve only known you online for like two weeks! We’ve never even met! That solved my anxiety problem! I definitely made the right decision!

Markus was going to have his daughter, and I Ben and Sam the rest of the week,in then he had to go out of town to a Tech (codeword for Geek!) conference Friday and Saturday. So we made arrangements to \meet that Saturday if he got back town. He told me later that he was driving like crazy to make it back from Tulsa! The guys he was with wanted to see some other booths and he said “NO! We’re leaving NOW!”

We decided to go downtown to the Mud House for coffee and tea. I hate to say that I don’t remember the details of the night…just that I do remember laughing and really enjoying him! As we were leaving I did something I’ve never done before! We were walking along this ally way and I was very aware of how close we were walking beside each other and how our arms were right next to each other. I every so slyly took his hand! Which totally threw him off…he responded with “What was that???” I said “Do you not want me to hold your hand? I can take it back.” Which he responded with: “NO! I want you to hold my hand…you just surprised me!” Hehehehe!

So from that night forward we’ve spend every day together! Whether it was all day, a couple hours for a date, or 10 minutes when he came by to bring me flowers! When I took Ben and Samantha over to meet him and his daughter, Logan, as we were leaving I asked Ben what he thought of Markus. He replied with “he’s a really nice guy. You like him don’t you?” I gave a coy smile and said “yeah…”